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What Namz and I saw at a cafe near the stadium..latent effect of Super Junior at its best ❤

SS4 WAS BEYOND AMAZING.I HAVE so much to say,but time will not permit because I’m incredibly sleepy now.First things first-SS4>SS3.I was a total emotional wreck.It felt good seeing the boys again.I think I now realized what love is really like.Love means you wishing that someone would be well and wishing that they would always be happy no matter what.I think besides my family and friends,I love the boys of Super Junior most.In time to come, I may stray away from them,but I can never unlove them.It all came full circle with CHOI SIWON.I will always remember Siwon as the first person I fell in love with in Kpop-it was him and his smouldering good looks that evoked my curiosity in Super Junior and the rest of kpop. After I was aware of Siwon’s existence,I began to be increasingly enthralled with kpop and DONGHAE and etc and it made me so happy.Hence it would be safe to conclude that it was CHOI SIWON who made me so happy.Okay I’m rambling but.SS4 was different from SS3 in so many ways.In SS3,I was younger, more innocent and more…new.In SS4 I’m abit older,a bit wiser,abit more…when I saw the boys perform,it felt different.I didn’t feel that starstruck anymore-It felt as though-as explained by Namira “it was like watching your friends perform”. I have to agree with that.If there’s one special quality about Super Junior, it is no other than their ability to make you feel right at home, to make you feel yourself and to make you feel like you’re having the time of your life.They make you feel so natural and so special-they’re stars at their zenith, yet seem to be the same approachable boys of next door-I hope they always maintain that special quality in them.

CHOI SIWON-it all came full circle on 19 January 2012.

Being the emotional wreck that I had been ever since I saw Heechul’ video in Oops, I started crying when the boys said their farewell message and stuff.The tears that I had fought so hard to contain and to swallow ever since the closure of the floodgates in Walkin just saw no return when I realized that the concert was nearly over.The boys-I love all of them.They performed Destiny as the final parting song(I’m glad it was in Chinese) and Siwon came over to my side.I had rushed down to the front during the encore and was able to clinch myself a place at that metal railing which separates us from the stage.As Siwon came over,I found my tears slipping down and HE CAUGHT ME CRYING.At first I was pretty shocked.I knew it was me when I realized that the girls beside me weren’t crying and Siwon was gesturing at me to wipe the tears.I did just that and he smiled at me and gave me a thumbs up-THAT WAS WHEN I KNEW HE WAS DEFINITELY LOOKING AT ME.I HONESTLY.It was…the ultimate dream of any fangirl to be recognized by your idol and it’s just surreal.I cannot love Shisus anymore than I did tonight and I think I will always love him.Even though Siwon is not the best singer/dancer/actor, he is a good man.He has a decent head on his shoulders and I think that’s most important.After all, when we think about it,what is most important at the end of the day is the fact that you’ve lived your life worthwhile and made people feel the best they can.Siwon made me feel that way and I’m forever thankful to him for that.One day when I’m old and gray and full of sleep,I may forget that  warm gruffness of his voice, his toned physique and smoldering good looks,but I know I will never forget how he made me feel.For that,CHOI SIWON I WILL ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS LOVE YOU.(there’s no expiry date for that.)

LEE DONGHAE:

well this boy.I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN DONGHAE WAS CONSTANTLY AT MY SIDE ALL THE TIME.THAT BOY IS AN ABSOLUTE DARLING.HOW CAN HE BE SO HOT AND SO SQUISHINGLY CUTE AT THE SAME TIME I JUST DONT GET IT. okay Donghae.The way he danced-UGH IT’S SO BEAUITFUL. ONE THING THAT NEVER CHANGES-If hyukjae can totally rock the stage with his dance moves,Donghae makes love with the stage so softly.OKAY I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN,but Donghae.He dances with passion yet there is restrained force and that results in a graceful element being produced. HE’S SO CUTE HE KEPT SKIPPING AROUND THE STAGE AND IS CONSTANTLY TRYING TO DRAW HYUK AND SIWON’S ATTENTION BY DANCING AROUND THEM.There was this  moment where he stood on the high rise and we were frantically waving about at him.He’s so real then.It’s like.wow.AND THEN HE SANG ZHE SHI AI FOR HIS SOLO I LOVED THAT SONG AND I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN HE SANG THAT SONG.WITH THAT SWEET,DOCILE SMILE OF HIS AND LOOKING SO HUGGABLE IN THAT LIME GREEN SUIT WHICH WAS SUPPOSED TO BE HYUK’S ,AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. OPPA OPPA WAS THE BEST THE BEST THE BEST.Okay when it comes to Donghae,he just reopens all the motherly instincts in me.OH AND DID I MENTION THAT HAE FORGOT TO COME OUT DURING HIS PART IN DOREMI.!!!! HE TOTALLY SKIPPED HIS TURN AND HE REALIZED THAT AND GAVE THE SHY “OH SHUCKS I MISSED IT LOOK” AHHHHHH SO DARLINGGGGGGGGGGG. ANDThat boy never changes his tongue is forever glib-He said that “you guys are locked in the stadium with me tonight so don’t bother escaping.you have to sleep with me” and he proceeded to lying on the ground and pretending that he’s asleep.HOW SWEET TONGUED CAN THIS DARLING GET? HE’S PERFECTION.

CHO KYUHYUN-

OKAY THIS MAN.First of all, despite his snarky demeanor, Cho Kyu Hyun is a complete darling.He’s a sweetheart.Kyuhyun said that he was pretty worried that those ELFs at the corners and the second row could not see them properly and missed out on the fun,so he did his best to wave frantically and HE RAN ALL OVER THE PLACE OKAY HE RAN ALL OVER THE STADIUM TO THE UTMOST ENDS AND WAVED SO HARD IT’S LIKE HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE HIM.The thing is,he was so sweet and his actions were really so endearing and were much appreciated.Kyuhyun even came over to my side so frequently even though he was based at the other side.OH AND STEVE JOBS KYU.WOW CHO KYUHYUN WOULD BE THE HOTTEST AHJUSSHI EVERRRRRRRRRRR he’s so nerdily hot and so sexy in that turtleneck but erm.Kyu CAN YOU NOT DO THAT CENTER PARTING OF HAIR PLEASE IT REALLY CREEPS ME OUT WITH YOUR SINISTER SMILE TO BOOT.HAHHA AND HE WAS BITING ONTO APPLES AND THROWING EM INTO THE CROWD.Hehe HE LOOKED SO HAPPY I WAS JUST AWWWWWW.AND HIS SOLO-Steve Wonder’s Isn’t She Lovely.Wow I just……when he played the harmonica I was just blown away.His fingers ugh.Wonderful Wonderful Wonderful.

LEETEUK:

AHHHHHH THAT MANBOY.I was so moved to tears when I heard his solo-Leeteuk playing the piano and the saxophone is the best combination ever.He went and give out roses to my side (but I didn’t get them BUT) I don’t know why,the mere thought of me thinking that he would no longer be here the next time round just dampens all the happy mood in me and I would just wanna mope around and not do anything but just mope.Teuk is wonderful he’s so hardworking and he gives his everything it’s so amazing.He tries so hard our leader tries so freaking hard it’s like he’ll do anything as long as his health and body allows.I cannot do anything else but love him for that.AND HE WAS SO HIGH YESTERDAY HE WAS CONSTANTLY RUNNING AROUND AND JAMMING HIS HEAD AND UGH HAHAHA for a 29 year old he sure has ALOT OF ENERGY and during good friends,he turned upside down and I WAS LIKE OMG ALL THE BLOOD IS RUSHING TO HIS HEAD HOW CAN HE TAKE IT AIYAH THIS BOY.

LEE HYUKJAE-

DARLING YOU ARE NOT BRAD PITT, TOM CRUISE, JOHNNY DEPP OR CHOI SIWON,BUT I LOVE YOU ALL THE SAME, LEE HYUKJAE.YOU ARE AMAZING YOU ARE A JEWEL AND A SHINING STAR IN YOUR OWN RIGHT.YOU DESERVE THE STAGE YOU BELONG TO THE STAGE DON’T LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE BECAUSE THEY ARE SIMPLY JEALOUS OF YOUR SHEER ABILITIES TO WOW THE WORLD WITH YOUR INTENSE TALENTS THAT KNOW NO BOUNDARIES OR LIMITS. I love you Eunhyuk I really do.Your gummy smile always brightens my day and I love your swag and your innocence and everything about you.You will continue to shine for all the years that have yet to come,simply because I say so and you will.

LEE SUNGMIN:

AHHHHH SUNGMINNIE. Okay Sungmin-he’s really really really goodlooking and has such beautiful features.AND MARILYN MINGROE WITH BOOBS-AT ONE POINT SUNGMIN EVEN ADJUSTED HIS BRA OKAY WAYLT.I love Ming.His solo was amazing he’s so talented and he dances so well.His tenor like voice is……….dreamy.dreamy.dreamy.AND SUNGMIN IMITATING KYUHYUN’S CENTER PARTING HAIR WAS HILARIOUS EVEN THOUGH MINGROE HAD NO FRINGE.AHHHHH I LOVE YOU LEE SUNGMIN.He was so sweet when he said hat he was upset they couldn’t stay another night-in fact they left around 11 plus yesterday but he wised he could stay on a little more-YOUR THOUGHT IS WELL APPRECIATED DARLING.

KIM RYEOWOOK-

WOOKIE.WOOKIE.WOOKIE.BOY YOU HAVE REALLY MATURED.I was so excited when Ryeowook showed a different part of him.He works so hard I don’t know what to do but applaud him for that.It was damn cute when he finished off that sexy dance with a cute smile-I was thinking,oh that WOOKIE I’ve known since forever still exists hehe.He really showed off his professionalism by venturing into waters untouched and he did it so damn well.I’m proud of you Kim Ryeowook.YOU ARE THE GREATEST SWEETHEART ALWAYS SO SMILEY AND SO EXCITED WAVING AT FANS AND WAVING AT US WE LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS YOU LOVE US.

KIM JONGWOON

AHHHHHHHHHH YESUNGIE.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOUR VOICE JUST BRINGS ME TO HEAVEN I’M NO EVEN JOKING.Yesung-He’s a miracle he’s a  wonder he’s an Angel.His voice I really cannot get enough of his voice it makes me so happy really.I was so mesmerized by his solo that I couldn’t help but stop waving my lightstick and just stare-and stare-and stare.It was only after his last note that the senses of my body awoke from their deep mesmerized slumber and broke into a thunder of applause.He’s the best singer LIVE and he’s so cute he tries so hard to run along with the other members even though I could tell he’s so tired and exhausted.AND HE TRIED TO DELAY BEING SPLASHED WITH WATER HEHE AND HE CHOSE SUNGMIN TO GO ALONG WITH HIM.SO CUTE OKAY.AHHH JONGWOON<3333333333333333

SHIN DONGHEE

First of all dearest DONGHEE,YOU ARE AMAZING.DOWNRIGHT AMAZING.REALLY I LOVE YOUR WIT AND CHARM AND YOUR CAPABILITY TO MAKE US LAUGH AND TOSS AWAY ALL OUR WORRIES EVEN IF IT’S FOR THE SHORTEST WHILE.You are amazing.Troublemaker and Bubblepop was sheer epic and you’re really special you know.I really love you you deserve all the love in the world.SHIN DONG SHIN DONG SHIN DONG WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH YOU.YOU’RE AN INDISPUTABLE PART OF SUPER JUNIOR AND I REALLY CANNOT IMAGINE SUPER JUNIOR WITHOUT YOU.YOU’RE AMAZING,MY LOVE.

HENRY LAU

ahhhhhhHENRRYYYYYYYYY.I’m glad you felt lots of love yesterday-you’re overflooding with so much talents my dearest and you’re wonderful.YOUR VOICE AND YOUR SKILLS. Henry Lau i really Love you so much I’m glad it was a two way process yesterday.It’s gonna be even better from now onwards okay.We love you so much and we will always have your back no matter what.You’re still so young you have the whole world waiting for you.I’ll be wherever you are okay Henry.ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS LOVING YOU XOXO

ZHOU MI-

MIMI YOU ARE GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GORGEOUS I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.YOUR SOLO TOTALLY MOVED ME TO TEARS.I wish I could hold you and tell you how special you are.YOUR SMILE-I can never get enough of it.You’re really the sunflower in my life honey and I wish that you’ll always be happy,always be smiling and always being the best that you can be.I love you my sunflower and you’re my king of endless legs.HEARTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Bascially SS4 SINGAPORE WAS WAY BETTER THAN SS3 SINGAPORE AND IT WAS SO HEARTWARMING WHEN I REALIZED THAT THE BOYS WERE TOTALY ENJOYING THEMSELVES THIS TIME.LEETEUK AND SHINDONG CRIED WHEN THEY SAW OUR WHITE LIGHT PROJECT WHICH MEANT THAT IT WAS A SUCCESS.ELFS WERE SO UNITED LAST NIGHT;AAAAAAAAA;

ss4 made me realize why I loved Super Junior so much and I KNOW THAT I will always continue loving them for the longest time to come-Forever’s not enough for me to love them that’s for sure.However,right now I do understand my priorities and I know that the boys of Super Junior have their own priorities too.If there’s two things I’ve took away with me when I left the stadium yesterday,it was the warmth that Siwon showed towards me and the joy that Super Junior have showered upon me yesterday.I know as time comes to pass and months fly by,the way months always do,I may forget a little and it will not be long before I will start forgetting alot of stuff that happened during SS4,but I know that I will never forget the way they made me feel.I will never forget how it felt like to jam along to their music and to sing and to shout my heart out with Namira and I will never forget the way they made me feel.Yesterday at SS4,I knew I was no longer that younger, more innocent and starstruck girl at SS3.At SS4,I was a little older,a little wiser,a little more worldweary and Super Junior just rekindled my faith in mankind and in life again.They taught me that Life gets arduous and Life gets exhausting and ultimately we’re just a bunch of humans trying to pursue our own dreams, to do what we want without leaving any residue of regrets.I know I have bigger dreams to fulfil now and Super Junior cannot be my whole life.I know outside ss4,beyond the glitz and glamour of their public life,they’re just men trying to do what they want and find their own places in this world-they too have their own untold dreams and aspirations-so we shall work towards our ambitions and goals together.I will always love them still.When they do come to Singapore again,I know I’ll be there for them.I’ll always support them from my own corner of the earth,and take charge of my own life at the same time-I guess it must be the realization of this “rite of passage” that choked me and resulted in the opening of the floodgates.I love them so much I love them enough to let them do whatever they want and be happy.I need to love myself,my family and friends more now.

An ELF to the end.The end’s only the beginning.

PARK JUNGSOO.KIM HEECHUL.HAN GENG.KIM JONGWOON.KIM YOUNGWOON.SHIN DONGHEE.LEE SUNGMIN.LEE HYUKJAE. CHOI SIWON. LEE DONGHAE.KIM RYEOWOOK.KIM KIBUM.CHO KYUHYUN.ZHOU MI.HENRY LAU.

Always.

(pictures will be posted soon)

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